My second appointment was my biweekly Obgyn appt. I love my obgyn practice and my doctor. At the office I go to, they don't assign you one doctor but make sure you meet with all the doctors and midwives so that when you're in labor you feel comfortable with who is delivering you. I had the same doctor office during my pregnancy and birth with Isla and since that was such a great experience, I went back for this pregnancy. The doctor I see most frequently (Dr. P) was so happy to see how well my body is handling this pregnancy and felt confident I can make it to the goal 34-36 weeks! This office is also very non-intervention and won't prescribe drugs unless really needed. They also listen to what you want and make you feel like you have a lot of control over your birth and delivery. She feels confident that I can have the natural delivery I want and that was very reassuring!
The last appointment was yesterday and it was our visit with the Pediatric Cardiologist. She performed the ultrasound herself and spent about two hours going over Everett's heart. The first piece of news was that she doesn't think it's a calcification but rather a mass/tumor. Obviously that word is scary but she reassured me that most malignant cardiac tumors look very different from the one Everett is showing. She is also not entirely sure if the tumor is in his heart (right atrium) or the hepatic vein and pushing into the heart. We won't know for sure until he is born and we can run some more tests. The very good news is that the blood flow in the heart looked normal, the blood flow in the hepatic vein looked normal and once again he didn't show any PACs (I think cutting that afternoon coffee did the trick)! After he is born they will run a bunch of tests (MRIs, Echocardiograms etc) to figure out what it is and where it is but if he isn't showing any signs that is obstructing or causing problems we will probably leave it alone and just monitor it.
Emotionally and mentally this has been a really rough week for me. I haven't been the kind of mom to my girls that I like to be. I have been impatient, yelling easily and getting so frustrated with them. Physically, it's such a challenge just to pick them up or cuddle them when they need it. It hurts! My belly is so big and it feels like a giant bruise so any pressure on it at all is miserable. I feel like both girls have been crying and acting out a lot. It makes me feel like I can't meet anyone's needs and freaks me out for when I have two new babies and the girls to care for while my husband is gone. I know that God is there for me and will help me but I've also been getting inside my own head too much. I get so overwhelmed just trying to do my normal daily things that when the girls start crying- I do too. It's been hard. I try to tell myself that I am just weeks away from giving birth to twins, I've been solo-parenting for over two weeks and this is going to be hard! Trying to think I should be handling it better is only setting myself up for disappointment.
Babies are the size of...Winter Squash! I will have a growth ultrasound this week but on average each baby should weigh just over 3 lbs and be about 16 inches long. The final organ - their lungs - are finishing developing and they are shedding their lanugo.
Maternity Clothes? Yep!
Weight Gain: +2.4 lbs! (32.7 lbs total) I can't believe how quickly the weight is coming on. Most blogs I've read, the moms weight gain slows at this point. Not me!
Symptoms: Same old same old. Contractions, shortness of breath. My feet feel tingly and swollen. My belly hurts. I am short-tempered and oh-so-tired! I know this is my last time to be pregnant and as much as I wanted to enjoy it- it seems like there is always some major stress going on...whether it was preterm labor, or a problem with a baby....it's been nothing like my normal, healthy pregnancies with the girls. It's always in the back of my mind and I know it's what is causing me to be extra cranky.
Stretch Marks? That mark above my belly button looks pretty weird. I used to have a belly button piercing but took it out when I was 19 or 20 years old. This week it looks like the piercing ripped through the inside. It's bright red from the piercing hole down to my belly button.
Sleep: It feels like I never get enough sleep. I am usually ready for a nap by 9:30 in the morning. Some days I get to nap while Isla does and I sleep so hard during that time. I wake up 5-6 times every night to chug water and pee. Some nights I still have insomnia when I wake up and other nights I go back to sleep very easily.
Movement? I've been freaked out this week because it feels like there is only movement on the left side of my tummy. I was trying to not stress too much. The cardiologist yesterday told me both babies legs and arms are on that side so that made me feel much better. It feels more like smooth rolling of knees and elbows rather than kicks (but I still get those too). I am also feeling them get the hiccups as their little heads bump into my pelvis and bladder over and over. I try to soak in these moments because I know this is my last pregnancy.
Genders and Twin Type: Identical Baby Boys!
What I Miss... being energetic and in a good mood!
Food Cravings: Grapes mostly. I haven't been hungry at all really. I don't have much space. My major craving this week has been ice tea. I make a giant 2 gallon pitcher full and drink it in two days. Since I can't have any extra caffeine I've been doing herbals like lemon and hibiscus.
Looking Forward To...my friend Shannon is coming to stay with me for the weekend! She used to live next door but moved to Houston. I can't wait to catch up with her. She is one of those friends you can just pour all the crazy in your head out to- and she listens and understands. :)